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Writing Wednesday: Dealing with Disappointment

Last week’s goals: 3 blog posts done as usual. Stories cycled to market in a timely manner (“Date Night” is back out there – running out of places to send it; it may become my February release.)

TOTAL FAIL on commenting on others’ blogs – a big fat ZERO. If I’m going to be serious about socializing, I probably need to schedule a specific time to do it.

I’m still prepping “Cats Out of the Bag” (Herc Tom, Champion of the Empire #6) for its January 4th release. Finished clean-up, but still need a cover and a blurb.

I credited myself with an even sadder 852 words of fiction last week over 3 days. Well, the runup to Christmas and is why I wrote so few days, but having an excuse doesn’t make me happy. My words-per-week-average has dropped to 1,882, so I probably won’t make the gains needed this week to catch up with my top two years (1,982 and 1,980.) It would now take somewhere over 8,100 words this week, which I’ve NEVER done, so I will finish the year as my third best.

My final 2018 report will be next week. Oh, the pain. The pain….

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Writers aren’t really anything special. We act like we are, but we’re just like everyone else in this life, put here to learn and grow. To find something to do – our special purpose – and then do our best to excel at it. It doesn’t matter whether you’re a doctor or a bricklayer, a teacher, an athlete, or any of the other infinite possibilities.

No matter what you do in this life, there will always be disappointments. One of the main things I believe about why we’re here – of the many things we’re supposed to learn – is to deal with these – setbacks.

This year has brought all sorts of disappointment in my writing.

I’ve had the usual parade of rejection letters (which we’re taught to see as badges of achievement – it’s like being lost in the desert – they prove that you’re still walking.) What these really do is tell me that I’ve gotten beyond where many would-be writers stall – I’ve completed and submitted my work. LOTS of work – 81 stories, with 530 rejections (and counting.)

There has yet to be a traditional sale of one of my stories – BUT I had a handful of close calls, including two Honorable Mentions in the Writer’s of the Future contest, and a  couple of nice, non-form-letter rejections, so that must mean I’m heading in the right direction, right?

When I made my goal for Swordsmaster to reach 90,000 words, I was in unfamiliar territory (it being the first novel of a short-fiction writer), I wound up over 5,000 words short of that goal. But I recognized my folly and re-calibrated my plans, so that means I’m learning, right?

I also didn’t realize how the novel was going to mess with my sort-story mind-set, so that even though I was only going to try to finish ten short stories, I barely made three. But two of the stories are each the length of three, so that’s more like seven. And I’m LEARNING AGAIN (hopefully) how to more effectively shift my mindset from short to long and back.

My words-per-week are still far short of my 3,000 quota, but I’ve managed my third best average out of eight years tracking this. And yes, I blew my chance to have it be the best in the last month, but that drop-off already happens during the holidays – what’s important is that I haven’t stopped writing.

Lastly, the money – I continue to have practically no online sales to speak of – well, a disappointment, but it’s not why I’m doing this, is it? Sure, it appears that despite seven years of building up an online inventory of 90+ ePublications (and counting, always counting), this may be my lowest royalty year ever. And my earnings milestone (the equivalent of one 3,000-word story sold at professional rate) has taken longer than I thought it would, but I have every reason to believe I’ll hit that milestone next year. And besides, I did say I’m not doing this for the money, didn’t I?

Sounds like a lot of rationalizations, doesn’t it? Whatever gets you through the night. It’s alright. It’s alright.

Keep writing – just saying…

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I’m participating in the 2nd Annual Smashwords End of Year Sale! Any of my books that are normally priced at more than 99-cents are half-off (that basically means all my collections.) The sale continues now through New Year’s Day.

Here’s the link to all my books on Smashwords:  https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/NoTimeToThink

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William Mangieri’s writing – including his most recent release – a collection called Collection10 CoverGoddesses, Sleep with the Snowmen, and Other Fantasies – can be found in many places, including:
• Smashwords:  https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/NoTimeToThink
• His Amazon Author page:  http://www.amazon.com/-/e/B008O8CBDY
• Barnes & Noble:  http://www.barnesandnoble.com/s/william-mangieri?store=book&keyword=william+mangieri

To CONNECT WITH HIM (and LIKE and FOLLOW), go to
• His site on WordPress:  https://williammangieri.wordpress.com
• “William Mangieri’s Writing Page” on Facebook at:  http://www.facebook.com/NoTimeToThink
• His Goodreads author page:  http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/6893616.William_Mangieri
• Or on twitter: @WilliaMangieri

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